Okies well I wanna rant k? Nobody actually has to read this, and I doubt anyone will so here goes nothing.

Our marching band took a trip to florida. Two days before it was over we went to epcot and magic kingdom. Me, my boyfriend and some other friends got a fast pass and then went to eat. My boyfriend and I split up because we wanted food from different countries. Our food took too long so I had to call and tell him we'd be late and to ride without us. So I didn't see him till we got back on the busses to go to the hotel again. There was a terrible mess with the trams and which park we were supposed to go to, so we sat on the bus for about an hour and a half.

So I get a text from my boyfriend that says we need to talk. I reply asking whats up. Well to make a long story short, he broke up with me on that bus about half an hour in to the hour and a half down time. I then began to cry... noone noticed... all the lights were on, there were friends all around me... and the only one person to notcie was my friend Sarah, who was sitting in the double to my seat. So we get back to the hotel and throughout the course of the wait he promised we'd still be friends.
He went running every night with his ex so she could stay in shape for track when they came home. I was fine with it because I was glad they could still be friends. He hung out with her for the rst of the trip and barely spoke to me.

We already had plans to go to prom and he still wanted to go. So I agreed. Because I wanted him to be happy. On the bus ride home, he met his ex at every rest stop. I asked him if he broke up with me for her. He swore he didn't. So I believed him. And I wouldn't care if he had... I'd just want to know so I could cry myself out and get over it.
So we're home and prom is on the way. The nigth before he stays over at my house so his mom won't have to run all over between him and his sister. We had a great time, playing video games, wrestling, and just havign fun. So we got all dressed up and went to prom. He ditched me all night. The last thing he did was slow dance with his ex. I sat by the door and waited for him. And managed not to cry until I saw him. We had ridden in a limo with friends. So he asked if it was there yet. When I went to answer I just kinda broke down... not like bawling, but a tear or two fell. He said again that he didn't dump me for her.
So I had a terrible time at prom... absolutely awful... I get home and want to go to bed. My sister and her boyfriend were on an air matress in our room, getting de promified to go to bed. So my bed is a nogo... lovely... so I cried myself to sleep on the couch with a pillow and a blanket that I had to find in the dark, even though both of them were awake and talking. But whatever... fine, I'll live. At least somebody's happy right?

I found out a week or so later.. that he told his mom that I had complained all night about being in a dress and that I refused to do anything... I haven't asked him about it yet... and I won't, because I was never supposed to find out, why should he need to know I did.

He has barely spoken to me since florida and he said I was still his best friend. He has been with his ex almost everyday, even though she says she's not interested. I have offered him rides home from work, and asked him if he'd like to hang out. Both were immediately shot down any time I offered or asked.

Today our band had to do two parades... they sat in seats across form each other and hung out into the aisle to talk to each other. I got a little upset and apparently my face showed it.. because her mother noticed and made me spill why I was so upset... when I started to talk I began to cry... again... and she did her best to make me feel better. So he didn't speak to me throughout the whoel thing... I went to a friedns house to swim and it was fun. When I got home I saw a tall kid wearing a blue hat playing horse shoes in my yard... (my parents invited a bunch of people over for a party) He had the gall to show up at my house... and the first thing he said to me was to call my dog because he was in the way... Apparently best friends no longer merit a hello. After a while he started talking to me again.. and we had a decent time. But of course his ex was over too. And guess what... he was her ride home. She was ready to leave so he had to go. I asked him if he'd come back... he said maybe... but it didn't happen. He was actually supposed to give a friend a ride to the party at my house... but he forgot about him..

So I'm in a bad mood and wanted to rant...
But regardless of what happens... I want him to be happy. Because he's still my friend... at least I still consider him a friend... even after how he's been treating me... But I wish he'd just tell me he loves her again so I could cry myself out and get over it already... that would make things way easier for me...
So anyway.. to anybody who actually reads this... thanks. <3

Updated!!!:

Well okay... yesterday we had to play for this principal's reception. It's our band final. So he has his license and his own car. And he's been fighting his mother for weeks to let him get his license. So I get there and see his sister. I asked her where he was... he was with his ex of course! They gave him a ride... even though he had fought for ever to get his stupid license.

And today in school I asked him if he wanted to hang out tonight. He said maybe and I told him to text me. Well he didn't text me so I texted him. He said he wasn't sure. I had a massive headache so I fell asleep. I woke up an hour later. He still hadn't answered... At around 5:30 my sister and her boyfriend went to khols and target... they saw him with her at a red light. Thanks you little bastard... thanks a lot. A friend I haven't seen in a long time was over... my sister casually mentioned it and I had to leave the room because I started to cry... again... I wouldn't care if he had just told me he was busy... but I guess I'm not good enough for that. but whatever...

I talked to him yesterday... so hopefully things will get a bit better.

Well, I've been getting more and more info, rather subtly of course and I know more than before. His birthday's coming up... to be a bitch or not to be... that is the question.